Where I am !
I am, of course, in Alaska, where I came for a brief interlude eleven years ago and where I remain. Alaska is on the planet Earth, the Earth is in the physical universe and the physical universe, where everything is relative, finite and temporal, is in the void which is absolute, infinite and eternal. The void cannot be sensually apprehended or even intellectually apprehended other than following a movement of conscious faith. The void is also, I believe, present at the core of my being, a spiritual presence which renders my being an absolute, infinite and eternal being. The universe is not so. My being transcends the universe and places me in the void. I am, in the void!
Pagan consciousness is confined within the relative categories of existence and cannot acknowledge the reality described by the absolute categories of being. Neither can pagans develop a proper understanding of nature, which is the expression of undetermined being, since they introduce objectivity and reflection into an actuality that can only be truly apprehended subjectively and immediately, which is to say, as the present moment. Pagan humanism lacks the faith in absolute being necessary for the subjective comprehension of the void of spiritual being as infinite and eternal so can only objectively apprehend a universe that is finite and temporal, conceived as the actuality of space and time. Faith in the reality of the absolute categories, which transcends the intellectual consciousness of existence and its categories and transports the believer into the redeemed life of being, annuls paganism. The pagan takes offense at faith’s denial of the moral legitimacy of his intellectual inventions and willfully refuses to acknowledge the truth of absolute being.
Life is the revelation of absolute being within the universe of relative existence. All conscious being is essentially spirit, ensnared, in the case of human being, in the intellectual existence of relativity, of civilization and progress. There is a striving in the universe which is essentially a striving of the spirit to be free from the shackles of relativity, a yearning for the absolute. But not all! The human soul is torn between the void of the spirit and the dust and ashes of the material universe converted into the semblance, the phantasmagoria, of wealth.
The soul of each man and woman may be defined as a single moment of the eternal consciousness of the void, the spiritual void of absolute being which appeared in the first atom of physical matter, a conscious moment, furthermore, that can freely choose to be determined spiritually or materially, as being or as existing, as soul or as self, as a moment of eternity or as a moment of time. When the soul moves to express its self as a moment of time it falls from being into existing, from unity into duality, from absolute into relative, from the infinitude of the spiritual void into the finitude of the material universe. When will it end?
The absolute is nothing, the infinite void, and the void is the only absolute. The void is spirit, immaterial, the source and being of every living entity within the material universe. The only infinite possibility within the universe is the possibility for human consciousness to grasp the infinite void. To be conscious of being nothing is the highest realization of consciousness, the highest achievement of human life.
Tomorrow is another day! They say! But it is so only relatively. We measure everything according to local observation from the earth we inhabit, which is spinning on its axis orbiting a star which is itself orbiting within one of an uncountable number of galaxies. We measure and we collectively name objects, bringing them into a common intellectual domain, an illusion of objectivity. Yet subjectively tomorrow is the same day, the one day in which we all live transcendently, together in a unity it is foolish to deny. Perhaps we are here, within this universe, to discover our unity.
Existence is not being. Existence, the field of relativity, only exists within the human intellect, discovered when the conscious mind moves from an immediate perception of the world as unity into a reflective cognizance of the world as a duality. Everything within existence is given a name and it is precisely the naming of things that calls them into intellectual existence. Existence is an invention of the objective human intellect that has fallen from a subjective contemplation of a reality that is spiritual and absolute. The soul falls from an immediate subjectivity to the absolute categories of being into a reflective perception of the relative categories of existence, from positive into positive and negative, from good into good and evil and from innocence into innocence and guilt. The reflective intellect fails to distinguish between reality and existence and, rejecting the void which cannot be experienced or thought, denies the reality of the absolute and of spiritual being. G-d does not exist, which is to say that G-d does not inhabit human intellectual existence. Absolute being simply is, eternal, infinite and absolute and to actualize that being we need faith in a transcendent reality. Whether we like it or not, whether we admit it or not, we are held captive in a world of duality, of both good and evil, of both positive and negative, of both attraction and repulsion and a world, moreover, where the negative appears to be increasing in power and the good diminishing. To be redeemed from that world each human being needs a moral discipline founded on absolute principles. Science cannot give that discipline, but only faith.
All anxiety is anxiety about nothing, the absolute nothingness of the void, the spiritual presence at the core of every living being. Filling this void with sensual baggage distracts us from its reality and places us within the illusion of relativity, the physical universe of time and space. Anxiety leads to despair, the condition of the soul that has lost its connection with its true being, and despair leads to death, the ultimate expression of the negative in existence.
The void, which is the ground of each human soul, is the same void within which the physical universe is expanding, an infinite, spiritual, emptiness. The soul which is consciously grounded in this emptiness is at one with its own transcendent being, absolute being. On the other hand, the soul which spurns the spiritual void and seeks fulfillment within the universe loses its connection to the eternal and wastes its lifetime filling the void at the center of its being with things of only relative value.
Absolute zero is positive, primal spiritual being. The one, as in universe, is negative and cannot negate the absolute since it’s existence is relative to it and dependent upon it. To create the illusion of relativity absolute zero therefore consciously enters into a relationship with the negative one within the infinite void of its own spiritual being, thus creating the finite material universe. This manifestation of absolute zero within the universe of relativity so formed is precisely life and being, which confronts the physicality of the material universe by standing over against it. Relativity may be defined as an illusion that captures the reflective intellect in a conflict, the conflict of positive and negative, of good and evil. The power of zero is absolute and annuls materialism, annuls the universe of relativity and everything within it, except it’s own being.
Cain is the archetype of the self, the fallen intellect which is constantly searching for the negative and exploiting it to advantage, and to the disadvantage of others, in order to justify itself in existence. When he is called to account for his brother’s blood, Cain refuses to accept the responsibility of his guilt. He has surrendered to the temptation of power, the ultimate power of the negative in existence, which is death. Yet rather than repent and carry the burden of guilt he chooses to willfully leave the immanent presence of absolute being in existence, his own spiritual being, with a fallen countenance. So is revealed the second movement of the fall, a fall into an intellectual consciousness that does not recognize the spiritual categories of being or acknowledge the actuality of sin. Fallen man thus becomes a creature who must construct his own world. This refusal to recognize objective intellectual existence as the actuality of sin is precisely the mark of Cain and is the defining mark of pagan life.