Pagan consciousness is confined within the relative categories of existence and cannot acknowledge the reality described by the absolute categories of being. Neither can pagans develop a proper understanding of nature, which is the expression of undetermined being, since they introduce objectivity and reflection into an actuality that can only be truly apprehended subjectively and immediately, which is to say, as the present moment. Pagan humanism lacks the faith in absolute being necessary for the subjective comprehension of the void of spiritual being as infinite and eternal so can only objectively apprehend a universe that is finite and temporal, conceived as the actuality of space and time. Faith in the reality of the absolute categories, which transcends the intellectual consciousness of existence and its categories and transports the believer into the redeemed life of being, annuls paganism. The pagan takes offense at faith’s denial of the moral legitimacy of his intellectual inventions and willfully refuses to acknowledge the truth of absolute being.
There is no legitimate authority or power on the earth, just as there can be no valid or authentic order in the chaos of existence. We use power to establish order in our own individual actualities, just as authorities use power to establish order in the larger actualities of states and nations. None of this is legitimate. All use of power is based on fear, a fear of chaos, the natural order of existence, a fear grounded in relativity since we have no faith or trust in the absolute, of which our fear is elevated to the level of terror. But the absolute is the void of our own being in which, if we trust, we lose both our fear of chaos and our fear of those authorities who use power to substantiate their illegitimate order.
I gaze outward at the chaos of existence. I gaze inward at the void of being. I meditate in the void and contemplate chaos.
►It is not easy to be conscious of the present moment expanding into eternity. The modern world in which we live is so caught up in linear time, in past and present, and in space, in here and there, and in the dust and ashes that fill space, yet both time and space are delusions of the fallen human intellect, the intellect which has fallen from contemplation of the absolute categories of being, of infinity and eternity, into the relative categories of existence, of past and of future, of here and of there, yet we are here now, in the present, eternal, moment. It is not easy to be conscious.
Existence, the sensually apprehended and intellectually conceived four dimensional space/time continuum, can be defined as a physical universe of relativity while the true vacuum of the absolute void into which this universe is expanding is a spiritually transcendent presence that cannot be sensually apprehended or intellectually known. The human conception of the relative universe of existence is striving to expand into the absolute presence of being, in order to comprehend an ultimate reality in an intellectual, unified theory and become absolute, the finite desiring to become infinite, the temporal to become eternal. This, of course, can never be achieved.
Reality is transcendent to every actuality, as the absolute is transcendent to existence. Reality is spiritual, encompassing the void and the physical universe within the void. The universe is a universe of relativity in which the only presence of the absolute is the presence of the void at the center of each living being. Within the relative actualities there can be no absolutes. These relative actualities are limited by the boundaries of rational thought, and it is precisely faith that introduces the absolute into the actual universe, not as idea but as transcendent reality. Faith instructs us that there is a reality beyond the actuality of intellectual existence. This reality is transcendent and absolute while existence is intellectual and relative.
Absolute zero is positive, primal spiritual being. The one, as in universe, is negative and cannot negate the absolute since it’s existence is relative to it and dependent upon it. To create the illusion of relativity absolute zero therefore consciously enters into a relationship with the negative one within the infinite void of its own spiritual being, thus creating the finite material universe. This manifestation of absolute zero within the universe of relativity so formed is precisely life and being, which confronts the physicality of the material universe by standing over against it. Relativity may be defined as an illusion that captures the reflective intellect in a conflict, the conflict of positive and negative, of good and evil. The power of zero is absolute and annuls materialism, annuls the universe of relativity and everything within it, except it’s own being.
Upon entering the world the soul of the human being is innocent and the relationship of this innocent soul with the world is one of of immediacy. Everything appears good and absolute, indeed, is good and absolute to the innocent soul. Confined in time and space, the soul eventually makes contact with the negative in existence, the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil, and reflecting from this negative the soul loses immediacy and innocence and now, in the reflective relationship with the world of relativity is tempted by the negative and becomes guilty. In order to regain lost innocence the soul must discover the presence of absolute good within the world of relativity and reflect once more to discover the redemptive power of this absolute good. With faith in this power the soul can rediscover its innocent relationship with the world, free from the illusory power of the negative. Only the paradoxical presence of the absolute within the world of relativity can trigger this double reflection, the necessary precursor to faith.
Since the fallen soul can no longer live in the reality of absolute being it enters a relative actuality, an intellectual existence in which it is constantly becoming, searching for its true identity and meaning and never being who it truly is in reality. It projects a negative image of its being, the idea of an individual self, into the artificial actuality of civilization, where it is held captive, conditioned and deformed by a false environment, the city, from which there can be no escape without a faith which reintroduces the absolute, spiritual categories into the world of intellectual relativity.
The idea is not infinite. If it were infinite it would not be possible. There are no infinite possibilities. The possibilities imaged in the idea are finite and cannot grasp what is real or distinguish between the real and the actual. Existence, the actualized possibility, is only a negative image of a reality which cannot be known by those reflective processes of rational thought that discover the idea, the ground of possibility. The actualities in which we each exist, the actualized possibilities, are only related coincidentally and impartially to the infinite reality of being.
Modern man, alone on the earth, perhaps alone in the universe, has a three-dimensional consciousness, a consciousness that is sensual, emotional, and intellectual. Intellectual consciousness is a reflective consciousness that forms the idea, a negative image of the world of immediate experience, in the imagination. The entire reflective thought process is thus based on the discovery of the negative, the possibility of the idea formed in the imagination. The actualization of this idea negates subjective immediacy and projects an objective possibility into existence. Reflection annuls immediate consciousness and the reflective soul, leaving the reality of being and forming the idea of the individuality of the self in the imagination, enters into an intellectual existence, breaking the bonds of immediacy and subjectivity and establishing its own objective actuality. It is precisely the projection of various negative images of individuality into the intellectual actuality of existence that annuls innocence and the immediate relationship with the absolute and veils the instinctive and intuitive consciousness of human being. The existential understanding of the unity of being, the good, is surrendered to the discovery of the duality of existence, good and evil.