truth lies in subjectivity (Kierkegaard)

The physical universe apprehended by human conceptual thought which grasps the object and conceives the objective world consists only of dust and ashes and the imminent phenomenon of life. This world of relativity only takes shape through the elimination of the subjective. It exists but cannot articulate reality, since reality requires the subjectivity of human consciousness to the absolute categories. Existence is an actuality imposed upon nature by the human intellect and is therefore limited to the expression of that which is objective and rational. The objective world exists as a figment of the human imagination and is not real. Consequently, the phenomenon of life as subjective consciousness becomes our sole avenue into the reality described by the absolute categories of being, the infinite and the eternal. The construction of an objective world proves to be an error on the path of development for human consciousness, a descent from that subjective apprehension of the absolute which is familiar to all forms of life into a conceptual framework of an invented and artificial actuality, imposed upon the reality of nature as civilization.


Existence, conceptual to the rational mind, can be defined and approached through dialectic. Intellectual existence in the physical universe described by relativity contains all that the human intellect has conceived and constructed as actualized possibility. The universe, which human consciousness describes as the realm of existence, is confined within the limitations of human rationality and the scientific method of thought which explores this finite universe cannot uncover a reality that is transcendent and spiritual. Reality is absolute, not limited by the boundaries of that human rational thought which outlines and defines existence in dialectical terms of the idea. The reality in which we live as actual subjects is immaterial, a spiritual void of absolute being, infinitely conscious and eternally alive, immanent within and yet transcendent to the physical universe that is suspended within the void. The consciousness of existence is an intellectual consciousness based on an idea which rejects the reality of spirit, while the consciousness of absolute being is a spiritual consciousness which comprehends and transcends the idea. The spiritual transcends the intellectual as being transcends existence.

being/in chaos

Within the confines of relativity irrational chaos is the natural order and any attempt to establish a rational order on this chaos can only be temporary and predestined to fail. Chaos is not reality, it is the universal actuality to which all other actualities are subject, the actualities established by individual persons to bring order into their lives, the actualities established by groupings of people to form a common environment and the actualities established by an elite to control by power, and by the fear of suffering, the lives and actualities of others. None of these relative actualities form reality, which is absolute and beyond the comprehension of the rational mind, yet the chaos of existence is a negative, limited mirror image of the void of being. Who can comprehend this?

The chaos of existence calls for a response rooted deeply in the human soul, which is not an image of the reality of being but being, not itself, since the self is merely an image of the soul reflected against the chaos of existence, but absolute being, unadulterated and pure. The human soul is the spiritual reality of the void of being, born into the chaos of existence.


I find it necessary at this juncture to share my view of the differentiation between the actualities of existence, which are manifold, and the reality of being, which is singular. In fact, the reality of being is the singularity of which the universe of actualities is striving to be a mirror image, which, of course, cannot be achieved since the universe is a universe of relativity while the reality of being is absolute. For this reason the expansion of the universe continues unabated. The reality of being is the infinite, spiritual void which contains the expanding material universe of finite actualities.

Each center of consciousness, each being, projects its own actuality into the chaos of existence, striving to impose an ordered actuality which accords with its own knowledge and understanding of the environment in which it consciously exists. These actualities rarely and only coincidentally mirror the reality of being.


I sat recently with an elder acquaintance as he regaled me with stories from his past, citing numerous places where he had traveled and the numerous people he had spent time with, some of them famous in their own venues, but of most of whom I was unaware. He had been, according to his stories, invited to dinners and festive gatherings all over the world and felt himself singled out and fortunate and happy to share memories of these occasions with me, over a glass or two of wine. At one point in his narrative he mentioned a local doctor to whom he had imparted some information, who approached him later saying, “You lied to me!” He had replied, “Of course, I always lie,” and passed the matter off as an embellishment or an exaggeration. I must admit that I enjoyed listening to him almost as much as he enjoyed telling his stories, so what matter if they were not true! No harm appeared to have been done and anyway, what is truth?

Truth is not relative and everything in the rational universe is relative. Truth transcends relativity, the Socratic secret, so cannot be discovered in the universe until the absolute is discovered. But the absolute does not exist, it simply is, behind the scenes as it were. Can the human mind even fathom where it is since it is nowhere in the universe? Surely, if the absolute were to make an appearance within the universe at a particular point in time and space, it would bring all of relativity into subjection, thereby establishing truth. This, of course, is not a possibility. It is merely an absolute necessity.

absolute power

Humanism, the belief that human beings and their societies are perfectible within the universe of relativity by their own efforts, lacks the faith in absolute being necessary for the subjective comprehension of the infinite and eternal void and can only conceive objectively a universe that is finite and temporal, the idea of the spatial actuality of time past. Faith in the reality of the absolute categories, which is transcendent to the intellectual consciousness of existence and its categories and transports the believer into the eternal moment of being, therefore annuls humanism. This reveals the ultimate power of the absolute, which is, to annul the negative in existence. The negative exists but has no reality and has its existence only in relationship to the void, which is absolute and positive. This relative existence of the negative, over against the positive, forms the actuality of the universe, confined within its own relativity of space and time. When the absolute void annuls the negative in existence the universe of relativity, of space and time, must cease to exist.

Time past!

Pagan consciousness is confined within the intellectual categories of existence, time and space, and cannot acknowledge the reality described by the absolute categories of eternity and infinity. Neither can pagans develop a proper understanding of nature, which is the expression of undetermined being, since they introduce objectivity and reflection into an actuality that can only be truly apprehended subjectively and immediately as the present moment. There is no present moment of time, only the past exists. Existence is time past. The moment is eternally present, stretching to infinity and therefore one with the void of being, the soul of the absolute. The individual soul may therefore be defined as a conscious moment, a moment of consciousness which can choose to be determined spiritually or materially. The spiritually determined soul becomes one with the absolute, while the materially determined soul is eventually lost in the chaos of existence, of time past.