truth lies in subjectivity (Kierkegaard)

The physical universe apprehended by human conceptual thought which grasps the object and conceives the objective world consists only of dust and ashes and the imminent phenomenon of life. This world of relativity only takes shape through the elimination of the subjective. It exists but cannot articulate reality, since reality requires the subjectivity of human consciousness to the absolute categories. Existence is an actuality imposed upon nature by the human intellect and is therefore limited to the expression of that which is objective and rational. The objective world exists as a figment of the human imagination and is not real. Consequently, the phenomenon of life as subjective consciousness becomes our sole avenue into the reality described by the absolute categories of being, the infinite and the eternal. The construction of an objective world proves to be an error on the path of development for human consciousness, a descent from that subjective apprehension of the absolute which is familiar to all forms of life into a conceptual framework of an invented and artificial actuality, imposed upon the reality of nature as civilization.

existence/being

Existence, conceptual to the rational mind, can be defined and approached through dialectic. Intellectual existence in the physical universe described by relativity contains all that the human intellect has conceived and constructed as actualized possibility. The universe, which human consciousness describes as the realm of existence, is confined within the limitations of human rationality and the scientific method of thought which explores this finite universe cannot uncover a reality that is transcendent and spiritual. Reality is absolute, not limited by the boundaries of that human rational thought which outlines and defines existence in dialectical terms of the idea. The reality in which we live as actual subjects is immaterial, a spiritual void of absolute being, infinitely conscious and eternally alive, immanent within and yet transcendent to the physical universe that is suspended within the void. The consciousness of existence is an intellectual consciousness based on an idea which rejects the reality of spirit, while the consciousness of absolute being is a spiritual consciousness which comprehends and transcends the idea. The spiritual transcends the intellectual as being transcends existence.

being/in chaos

Within the confines of relativity irrational chaos is the natural order and any attempt to establish a rational order on this chaos can only be temporary and predestined to fail. Chaos is not reality, it is the universal actuality to which all other actualities are subject, the actualities established by individual persons to bring order into their lives, the actualities established by groupings of people to form a common environment and the actualities established by an elite to control by power, and by the fear of suffering, the lives and actualities of others. None of these relative actualities form reality, which is absolute and beyond the comprehension of the rational mind, yet the chaos of existence is a negative, limited mirror image of the void of being. Who can comprehend this?

The chaos of existence calls for a response rooted deeply in the human soul, which is not an image of the reality of being but being, not itself, since the self is merely an image of the soul reflected against the chaos of existence, but absolute being, unadulterated and pure. The human soul is the spiritual reality of the void of being, born into the chaos of existence.

actuality/reality

I find it necessary at this juncture to share my view of the differentiation between the actualities of existence, which are manifold, and the reality of being, which is singular. In fact, the reality of being is the singularity of which the universe of actualities is striving to be a mirror image, which, of course, cannot be achieved since the universe is a universe of relativity while the reality of being is absolute. For this reason the expansion of the universe continues unabated. The reality of being is the infinite, spiritual void which contains the expanding material universe of finite actualities.

Each center of consciousness, each being, projects its own actuality into the chaos of existence, striving to impose an ordered actuality which accords with its own knowledge and understanding of the environment in which it consciously exists. These actualities rarely and only coincidentally mirror the reality of being.

Death is an affront !

It is the self’s desire for eternal life in the face of death that motivates the individual male’s sexual urge, to propagate and pass on his seed through generation in a competitive status with other individual males, giving rise to all male aggression, including aggression for the purpose of procuring territory or property needed to attract a mate, which aggression is thus sexually based, the urge of the fruit of an inauthentic individuality, the self, a false image of the soul reflected against the illegitimate order of civilization, for immortality. To establish its own immortality the self wills to vanquish its rival!
But my anxiety in regards to my human life confronted by death, my eternal being in a temporal environment, is not merely about the threat of death in whose shadow I stand at every moment of time, but also about my ability to live an ordered life in the midst of the chaos of the unknown that borders the circumference of what I think I know. I accept the order of civilization because I fear chaos and am then further terrorized into submission by those who seize control of this false order of civilization and use the fear of death as their tool.

truth?

I sat recently with an elder acquaintance as he regaled me with stories from his past, citing numerous places where he had traveled and the numerous people he had spent time with, some of them famous in their own venues, but of most of whom I was unaware. He had been, according to his stories, invited to dinners and festive gatherings all over the world and felt himself singled out and fortunate and happy to share memories of these occasions with me, over a glass or two of wine. At one point in his narrative he mentioned a local doctor to whom he had imparted some information, who approached him later saying, “You lied to me!” He had replied, “Of course, I always lie,” and passed the matter off as an embellishment or an exaggeration. I must admit that I enjoyed listening to him almost as much as he enjoyed telling his stories, so what matter if they were not true! No harm appeared to have been done and anyway, what is truth?

Truth is not relative and everything in the rational universe is relative. Truth transcends relativity, the Socratic secret, so cannot be discovered in the universe until the absolute is discovered. But the absolute does not exist, it simply is, behind the scenes as it were. Can the human mind even fathom where it is since it is nowhere in the universe? Surely, if the absolute were to make an appearance within the universe at a particular point in time and space, it would bring all of relativity into subjection, thereby establishing truth. This, of course, is not a possibility. It is merely an absolute necessity.

success?

In reality the essential task of every human being is to remain conscious of the absolute categories and practice a selfless compassion, thereby to annul the negative brought about by the expression of the self in existence. Instead of pursuing this task however, the worldly are engaged in a rampage of self-actualization, seeking to outdo each other in a frenzy of greed and pride. In the place of denial of the self, which is merely an image of their true being reflected against the artificial world of the city, they have cast themselves loose in the universe of dust and ashes, fabricating the idea and actualizing the self’s fulfillment of success in the intellectual construct of existence, although real success in life is, not the actualization of the idea of an individual self, but the realization of one’s true being in an eternal and infinite harmony with the absolute.