All anxiety is anxiety about nothing, the absolute nothingness of the void, the spiritual presence at the core of every living being and the reality into which the universe of actualities is expanding. Filling this void at the core of our being with sensual baggage distracts us from its reality and places us within the illusion of relativity, the physical universe of time and space. Anxiety leads to despair, the condition of the soul that has lost its connection with its true being, and despair leads to death, the ultimate illusion of relativity and the ultimate expression of the negative in existence.
The spiritual void which is the ground of each human soul is the same void within which the physical universe is expanding, an infinite, spiritual emptiness. The soul which is consciously grounded in this emptiness is at one with its own transcendent being, absolute being. On the other hand, the soul which spurns the spiritual void and seeks fulfillment within the universe loses its connection to the eternal and wastes its lifetime filling the void at the center of its being with things of only relative value.
I am from the void, the void of being, the void of spiritual being, the void of conscious being. I am a spiritually conscious being.
The self that I project, in different forms, into the physical universe around me, is only an image of my being, a false image, shaped by my particular environment, by my place in the world of relativity. This illusory self, born of woman from the seed of man, is formed and reformed by the shifting currents of the chaos of existence
I am every man, every woman, every form of being, in this universe and beyond this universe, in the void of being. The finite universe is confined within the infinite void and the void is present in the center, the soul of every being, at the center of my being,
I am in the void, the spiritual void of being. I am no longer hiding among the artifacts of existence, I am no longer attempting, with futility, to fill the void at the center of my being with the distractions of chaos.
I am still, within the void, gazing outward, conscious only of being.
Where I am !
I am, of course, in Alaska, where I came for a brief interlude eleven years ago and where I remain. Alaska is on the planet Earth, the Earth is in the physical universe and the physical universe, where everything is relative, finite and temporal, is in the void which is absolute, infinite and eternal. The void cannot be sensually apprehended or even intellectually apprehended other than following a movement of conscious faith. The void is also, I believe, present at the core of my being, a spiritual presence which renders my being an absolute, infinite and eternal being. The universe is not so. My being transcends the universe and places me in the void. I am, in the void!
Pagan consciousness is confined within the relative categories of existence and cannot acknowledge the reality described by the absolute categories of being. Neither can pagans develop a proper understanding of nature, which is the expression of undetermined being, since they introduce objectivity and reflection into an actuality that can only be truly apprehended subjectively and immediately, which is to say, as the present moment. Pagan humanism lacks the faith in absolute being necessary for the subjective comprehension of the void of spiritual being as infinite and eternal so can only objectively apprehend a universe that is finite and temporal, conceived as the actuality of space and time. Faith in the reality of the absolute categories, which transcends the intellectual consciousness of existence and its categories and transports the believer into the redeemed life of being, annuls paganism. The pagan takes offense at faith’s denial of the moral legitimacy of his intellectual inventions and willfully refuses to acknowledge the truth of absolute being.
Life is the revelation of absolute being within the universe of relative existence. All conscious being is essentially spirit, ensnared, in the case of human being, in the intellectual existence of relativity, of civilization and progress. There is a striving in the universe which is essentially a striving of the spirit to be free from the shackles of relativity, a yearning for the absolute. But not all! The human soul is torn between the void of the spirit and the dust and ashes of the material universe converted into the semblance, the phantasmagoria, of wealth.
The soul of each man and woman may be defined as a single moment of the eternal consciousness of the void, the spiritual void of absolute being which appeared in the first atom of physical matter, a conscious moment, furthermore, that can freely choose to be determined spiritually or materially, as being or as existing, as soul or as self, as a moment of eternity or as a moment of time. When the soul moves to express its self as a moment of time it falls from being into existing, from unity into duality, from absolute into relative, from the infinitude of the spiritual void into the finitude of the material universe. When will it end?
The motion of matter within the expanding universe posits the existence of both space and time, and time posits a beginning and an end of space. At the beginning, there could have been no matter since there was no space in which matter could exist. The first atom of matter therefore posits space and the second atom of matter posits linear time. As matter expands, space expands and time measures precisely this expansion of space. Space precedes time, the first moment of time measuring the appearance of the second atom of space. Linear time did not begin at the first moment of the existence of space, which was not a moment of time but the eternal moment of the infinite void. The beginning of the ongoing process of the formation of the physical universe, whether it began with an atom of immense mass containing all of the density of matter that ever will be present in the physical universe as is postulated in the first theoretical law of thermodynamics, or whether it began with a simple atom of hydrogen containing one proton and one electron which divided and reproduced itself while continuing to disintegrate and associate into the various combinations of protons and electrons that make up the heavier elements expanding the universe of space in time within the infinite void, the beginning of this process is the beginning of a finite and temporal universe and not the beginning of the eternal void, which can have no beginning in time since it contains no space where physical matter could exist and time could come into play. The physical universe is a temporal space within which everything is relative, that came into existence within an eternal, infinite and absolute void. The physical theorists of academia also posit an infinite vacuum as the ground in which the universe began and posit the beginning of the universe of form as an inflationary moment that occurred before linear time began. This inflationary moment and this vacuum is, of course, the void of absolute being within which the physical universe came into existence, an eternal moment and an infinite void to which the expansion of the universe can only aspire and which it can never attain.
The absolute is nothing, the infinite void, and the void is the only absolute. The void is spirit, immaterial, the source and being of every living entity within the material universe. The only infinite possibility within the universe is the possibility for human consciousness to grasp the infinite void. To be conscious of being nothing is the highest realization of consciousness, the highest achievement of human life.
Existence, the sensually apprehended and intellectually conceived four dimensional space/time continuum, can be defined as a physical universe of relativity while the true vacuum of the absolute void into which this universe is expanding is a spiritually transcendent presence that cannot be sensually apprehended or intellectually known. The human conception of the relative universe of existence is striving to expand into the absolute presence of being, in order to comprehend an ultimate reality in an intellectual, unified theory and become absolute, the finite desiring to become infinite, the temporal to become eternal. This, of course, can never be achieved.
Reality is transcendent to every actuality, as the absolute is transcendent to existence. Reality is spiritual, encompassing the void and the physical universe within the void. The universe is a universe of relativity in which the only presence of the absolute is the presence of the void at the center of each living being. Within the relative actualities there can be no absolutes. These relative actualities are limited by the boundaries of rational thought, and it is precisely faith that introduces the absolute into the actual universe, not as idea but as transcendent reality. Faith instructs us that there is a reality beyond the actuality of intellectual existence. This reality is transcendent and absolute while existence is intellectual and relative.
Tomorrow is another day! They say! But it is so only relatively. We measure everything according to local observation from the earth we inhabit, which is spinning on its axis orbiting a star which is itself orbiting within one of an uncountable number of galaxies. We measure and we collectively name objects, bringing them into a common intellectual domain, an illusion of objectivity. Yet subjectively tomorrow is the same day, the one day in which we all live transcendently, together in a unity it is foolish to deny. Perhaps we are here, within this universe, to discover our unity.