I sat recently with an elder acquaintance as he regaled me with stories from his past, citing numerous places where he had traveled and the numerous people he had spent time with, some of them famous in their own venues, but of most of whom I was unaware. He had been, according to his stories, invited to dinners and festive gatherings all over the world and felt himself singled out and fortunate and happy to share memories of these occasions with me, over a glass or two of wine. At one point in his narrative he mentioned a local doctor to whom he had imparted some information, who approached him later saying, “You lied to me!” He had replied, “Of course, I always lie,” and passed the matter off as an embellishment or an exaggeration. I must admit that I enjoyed listening to him almost as much as he enjoyed telling his stories, so what matter if they were not true! No harm appeared to have been done and anyway, what is truth?
Truth is not relative and everything in the rational universe is relative. Truth transcends relativity, the Socratic secret, so cannot be discovered in the universe until the absolute is discovered. But the absolute does not exist, it simply is, behind the scenes as it were. Can the human mind even fathom where it is since it is nowhere in the universe? Surely, if the absolute were to make an appearance within the universe at a particular point in time and space, it would bring all of relativity into subjection, thereby establishing truth. This, of course, is not a possibility. It is merely an absolute necessity.
In reality the essential task of every human being is to remain conscious of the absolute categories and practice a selfless compassion, thereby to annul the negative brought about by the expression of the self in existence. Instead of pursuing this task however, the worldly are engaged in a rampage of self-actualization, seeking to outdo each other in a frenzy of greed and pride. In the place of denial of the self, which is merely an image of their true being reflected against the artificial world of the city, they have cast themselves loose in the universe of dust and ashes, fabricating the idea and actualizing the self’s fulfillment of success in the intellectual construct of existence, although real success in life is, not the actualization of the idea of an individual self, but the realization of one’s true being in an eternal and infinite harmony with the absolute.
Humanism, the belief that human beings and their societies are perfectible within the universe of relativity by their own efforts, lacks the faith in absolute being necessary for the subjective comprehension of the infinite and eternal void and can only conceive objectively a universe that is finite and temporal, the idea of the spatial actuality of time past. Faith in the reality of the absolute categories, which is transcendent to the intellectual consciousness of existence and its categories and transports the believer into the eternal moment of being, therefore annuls humanism. This reveals the ultimate power of the absolute, which is, to annul the negative in existence. The negative exists but has no reality and has its existence only in relationship to the void, which is absolute and positive. This relative existence of the negative, over against the positive, forms the actuality of the universe, confined within its own relativity of space and time. When the void annuls the negative in existence the universe of relativity, of space and time, will cease to exist.
Pagan consciousness is confined within the intellectual categories of existence, time and space, and cannot acknowledge the reality described by the absolute categories of eternity and infinity. Neither can pagans develop a proper understanding of nature, which is the expression of undetermined being, since they introduce objectivity and reflection into an actuality that can only be truly apprehended subjectively and immediately as the present moment. There is no present moment of time, only the past exists. Existence is time past. The moment is eternally present, stretching to infinity and therefore one with the void of being, the soul of the absolute. The individual soul may therefore be defined as a conscious moment, a moment of consciousness which can choose to be determined spiritually or materially. The spiritually determined soul becomes one with the absolute, while the materially determined soul is eventually lost in the chaos of existence, of time past.
All anxiety is anxiety about nothing, the absolute nothingness of the void, the spiritual presence at the core of every living being and the reality into which the universe of actualities is expanding. Filling this void at the core of our being with sensual baggage distracts us from its reality and places us within the illusion of relativity, the physical universe of time and space. Anxiety leads to despair, the condition of the soul that has lost its connection with its true being, and despair leads to death, the ultimate illusion of relativity and the ultimate expression of the negative in existence.
The spiritual void which is the ground of each human soul is the same void within which the physical universe is expanding, an infinite, spiritual emptiness. The soul which is consciously grounded in this emptiness is at one with its own transcendent being, absolute being. On the other hand, the soul which spurns the spiritual void and seeks fulfillment within the universe loses its connection to the eternal and wastes its lifetime filling the void at the center of its being with things of only relative value.
I am from the void, the void of being, the void of spiritual being, the void of conscious being. I am a spiritually conscious being.
The self that I project, in different forms, into the physical universe around me, is only an image of my being, a false image, shaped by my particular environment, by my place in the world of relativity. This illusory self, born of woman from the seed of man, is formed and reformed by the shifting currents of the chaos of existence
I am every man, every woman, every form of being, in this universe and beyond this universe, in the void of being. The finite universe is confined within the infinite void and the void is present in the center, the soul of every being, at the center of my being,
I am in the void, the spiritual void of being. I am no longer hiding among the artifacts of existence, I am no longer attempting, with futility, to fill the void at the center of my being with the distractions of chaos.
I am still, within the void, gazing outward, conscious only of being.
The soul of each man and woman may be defined as a single moment of the eternal consciousness of the void, the spiritual void of absolute being which appeared in the first atom of physical matter, a conscious moment, furthermore, that can freely choose to be determined spiritually or materially, as being or as existing, as soul or as self, as a moment of eternity or as a moment of time. When the soul moves to express its self as a moment of time it falls from being into existing, from unity into duality, from absolute into relative, from the infinitude of the spiritual void into the finitude of the material universe. When will it end?