It is the self’s desire for eternal life in the face of death that motivates the individual male’s sexual urge, to propagate and pass on his seed through generation in a competitive status with other individual males, giving rise to all male aggression, including aggression for the purpose of procuring territory or property needed to attract a mate, which aggression is thus sexually based, the urge of the fruit of an inauthentic individuality, the self, a false image of the soul reflected against the illegitimate order of civilization, for immortality. To establish its own immortality the self wills to vanquish its rival!
But my anxiety in regards to my human life confronted by death, my eternal being in a temporal environment, is not merely about the threat of death in whose shadow I stand at every moment of time, but also about my ability to live an ordered life in the midst of the chaos of the unknown that borders the circumference of what I think I know. I accept the order of civilization because I fear chaos and am then further terrorized into submission by those who seize control of this false order of civilization and use the fear of death as their tool.
Pagan consciousness is confined within the intellectual categories of existence, time and space, and cannot acknowledge the reality described by the absolute categories of eternity and infinity. Neither can pagans develop a proper understanding of nature, which is the expression of undetermined being, since they introduce objectivity and reflection into an actuality that can only be truly apprehended subjectively and immediately as the present moment. There is no present moment of time, only the past exists. Existence is time past. The moment is eternally present, stretching to infinity and therefore one with the void of being, the soul of the absolute. The individual soul may therefore be defined as a conscious moment, a moment of consciousness which can choose to be determined spiritually or materially. The spiritually determined soul becomes one with the absolute, while the materially determined soul is eventually lost in the chaos of existence, of time past.
The motion of matter within the expanding universe posits the existence of both space and time, and time posits a beginning and an end of space. At the beginning, there could have been no matter since there was no space in which matter could exist. The first atom of matter therefore posits space and the second atom of matter posits linear time. As matter expands, space expands and time measures precisely this expansion of space. Space precedes time, the first moment of time measuring the appearance of the second atom of space. Linear time did not begin at the first moment of the existence of space, which was not a moment of time but the eternal moment of the infinite void. The beginning of the ongoing process of the formation of the physical universe, whether it began with an atom of immense mass containing all of the density of matter that ever will be present in the physical universe as is postulated in the first theoretical law of thermodynamics, or whether it began with a simple atom of hydrogen containing one proton and one electron which divided and reproduced itself while continuing to disintegrate and associate into the various combinations of protons and electrons that make up the heavier elements expanding the universe of space in time within the infinite void, the beginning of this process is the beginning of a finite and temporal universe and not the beginning of the eternal void, which can have no beginning in time since it contains no space where physical matter could exist and time could come into play. The physical universe is a temporal space within which everything is relative, that came into existence within an eternal, infinite and absolute void. The physical theorists of academia also posit an infinite vacuum as the ground in which the universe began and posit the beginning of the universe of form as an inflationary moment that occurred before linear time began. This inflationary moment and this vacuum is, of course, the void of absolute being within which the physical universe came into existence, an eternal moment and an infinite void to which the expansion of the universe can only aspire and which it can never attain.
The absolute is nothing, the infinite void, and the void is the only absolute. The void is spirit, immaterial, the source and being of every living entity within the material universe. The only infinite possibility within the universe is the possibility for human consciousness to grasp the infinite void. To be conscious of being nothing is the highest realization of consciousness, the highest achievement of human life.
Existence, the sensually apprehended and intellectually conceived four dimensional space/time continuum, can be defined as a physical universe of relativity while the true vacuum of the absolute void into which this universe is expanding is a spiritually transcendent presence that cannot be sensually apprehended or intellectually known. The human conception of the relative universe of existence is striving to expand into the absolute presence of being, in order to comprehend an ultimate reality in an intellectual, unified theory and become absolute, the finite desiring to become infinite, the temporal to become eternal. This, of course, can never be achieved.
Reality is transcendent to every actuality, as the absolute is transcendent to existence. Reality is spiritual, encompassing the void and the physical universe within the void. The universe is a universe of relativity in which the only presence of the absolute is the presence of the void at the center of each living being. Within the relative actualities there can be no absolutes. These relative actualities are limited by the boundaries of rational thought, and it is precisely faith that introduces the absolute into the actual universe, not as idea but as transcendent reality. Faith instructs us that there is a reality beyond the actuality of intellectual existence. This reality is transcendent and absolute while existence is intellectual and relative.
Tomorrow is another day! They say! But it is so only relatively. We measure everything according to local observation from the earth we inhabit, which is spinning on its axis orbiting a star which is itself orbiting within one of an uncountable number of galaxies. We measure and we collectively name objects, bringing them into a common intellectual domain, an illusion of objectivity. Yet subjectively tomorrow is the same day, the one day in which we all live transcendently, together in a unity it is foolish to deny. Perhaps we are here, within this universe, to discover our unity.
We apparently live in an expanding material universe within which everything is conceived as relative by the rational, human mind, a universe that began with the first appearance of space and time. Since this universe of relativity had a beginning it must also have an ending. Before the beginning there was nothing and after the end there will also be nothing. It is within this nothing, this void, that the physical universe is expanding its space and time. Viewed from within the universe of relativity the absolute is nothing, it does not exist, it simply is, inconceivable to the rational, human mind. Faith informs us that the void is spiritual; absolute, infinite and eternal, while the rational, human mind informs us that the physical universe is relative, finite and temporal. Only the relative universe exists, forming space and time, and it came into existence at its beginning within the absolute void, within a true vacuum in which there is not even a presentiment of materialism. The spiritual void is the ultimate reality and existence is not reality but a delusion of the rational, human mind.